Science versus God

Just now, as I was brushing my teeth (and feeling some slight pain), I silently and prayerfully asked Heavenly Father is He still wants me to wait on a medical procedure that I have been advised to go under surgery for.  While my condition does not necessarily pose serious risks, currently, many doctors and concerned friends and family have told me that I should take care of the matter, so that it doesn't result in unforeseen problems.  

I admit, logically it makes no sense that I should wait.  Financially, I can afford it.  I also have a large network of family and friends that would gladly step in to help my family and I- as well as to make meals. So why wait? I'm not sure- exactly.  I do know that when I've taken it to God in prayer, I feel that now is not the time to have surgery.

This has been going on for months.  No, years.  Initially, I asked about this issue in prayer a lot-- but that last time (before tonight) that I asked Him, was last July.  I remember I was up camping in the high uintahs. I was sleeping in the front seat of the van, because the pain of sleeping on the ground is accentuated by my condition.  It was in the dark hours of night and I was restless over another matter of concern.  I said a prayer very much like this... "Heavenly Father, You tell me to wait on this, but the doctors and medical science tell me to take care of it now so nothing bad happens from it.  Family and friends doubt my wisdom in waiting.  If I'm really supposed to continue at this time without surgery, would thou please let me know that it's going to be alright." Immediately I heard a very specific line from the Frozen song, Let it Go... I heard,

"It's funny how some distance
Makes everything seem small
And the fears that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all!."



In that moment, I knew that the distance of time would help make the reason clear, and that I need to let this go, and trust in His wisdom- over that of science.  That moment was profound for me, and indeed I did leave it to Him to know all things- even where there are no real explanations,except spiritual ones.

Tonight, as I walked uncomfortably and mildly painfully I asked in prayer again,.. "Please let me know that I'm doing the right thing in waiting on this surgery."  Within seconds this song played into my thoughts, "Walk tall you're a daughter.  A daughter of God."  I smiled and said, "Okay then, I guess it means to wait on it. Thank you."  And then the title of an LDS hymn came to my mind, "When Faith Endures."  (Interesting in itself, because usually I would hear the words and the melody of the first line-- but I think the emphasis from the Spirit of God, is that I need to keep my FAITH.



When Faith Endures (lyrics)

I will not doubt, I will not fear;
God's love and strength are always near.
His promised gift helps me to find
An inner strength and peace of mind.
I give the Father willingly
My trust, my prayers, humility.
His Spirit guides; his love assures
That fear departs when faith endures.

Text: Naomi W. Randall, 1908-2001. (c) 1985 IRI
Music: Stephen M. Jones, b. 1960. (c) 1985 IRI
The peaks and valleys of life are fascinating.  When we were young, we felt so intelligent and capable. Often we felt invincible- as though nothing could stop us.  Most of us hadn't experienced the depth and range of feelings and emotions possible within the walls of spirit.  We couldn't fathom where life would lead.    It is the same with experiences, the perplexities of influence, choice, and direction are generally unnoticeable until after we reach certain destinations.  And, at those times, we can look back and say things like, "How thankful I am my sweet band teacher Mr. Moglia was to give me that vocal solo- it was my first real experience with performing, and was a boost to my self confidence."  Or, "Who knew that my introducing myself the day she walked passed my house, would lead to a dear friendship."  Life is just like that, and we usually don't understand the why's and wherefore's of most things.

So I will continue to hold off on surgery.  I will continue to lightheartedly tell people that I don't recover well from surgery, and that I can wait for the pain of the experience.  I have told 2-4 people that I feel impressed to wait to take care of this condition, but I have not explained much-- other than I feel I should wait.  I do have a few ideas why.  I don't understand completely, but I've had thoughts and impressions that seem to give me some insight-- though not remotely all the reasons. If I am truly in tune with the Spirit of God- and oh, I hope I am. (though sometimes I doubt myself), then waiting will be the best thing for me.

I am not saying to rebel from having surgery, not put off taking care of important medical needs.  What I am saying is this:  Heavenly Father sees the complete picture of dynamics in our lives.  His vision is clear and comprehensive.  If He tells me to wait, then I will!  After all, braces used to be the method in which teeth and jaws were straightened and corrected!  Who knew clear, removable plastic "invisalign" trays would be an option.  Who knew they'd be removable, and that you could brush, floss and eat with them off.  Who knew that a computer could calculate how to straighten the teeth in this technique, how many trays would be needed, and how long the process would take by computer calculation!  Amazing!

I will wait to have this surgery.  I will have faith that Heavenly Faith will go before me to prepare the way.  I will listen to His voice, far above the cacophony of the world.  I will find peace and direction by hearkening to His will

2 Timothy 1: 

 7 For God hath not given us the spirit of ^afear; but of^bpower, and of ^clove, and of a sound mind. 

 8 Be not thou therefore ^aashamed of the ^btestimony of our Lord, nor of me his prisoner: but be thou partaker of the afflictions of the gospel according to the power of God; 

 9 Who hath saved us, and called us with an holy ^acalling, not according to our works, but according to his own purpose and ^bgrace, which was given us in Christ Jesus before the world began, 

  12 For the which cause I also suffer these things: nevertheless I am not ^aashamed: for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day.

Live righteously.  Deny the bad habits that displease God, and turn to Him in faith.  He will lead you with a special protection and peace, if you keep His commandments.

All the best,
Christine

Scarred Face

Last night I met a young man, and his wife, in an LDS (Mormon) temple. This man had a severely scarred face, and instead of lips there was just a hole-which reveals his teeth and tongue.

I was surprised that despite his facial disfigurement, I did not cringe to look at him. Instead, I found him to be truly beautiful. It was as though the radiance of his beautiful and sweet spirit outshone the discolored shapes and patched skin colors of his face. All in white clothing, he looked nothing less than an angel to me.

I have often wondered how it might feel to be scarred in such an obvious manner. I made an opportunity to speak with him. He and his lovely wife, were very kind to let me ask a few questions, and share some personal feelings I have on the matter. Two of the things I asked were this:

1. Does it hurt? (It looks painful.) He replied that it didn't hurt at all.

2. How do people treat you when he goes into public?

(His reply (to paraphrase) was this:)

 "You do get some looks, but you can't worry about what the world thinks of you. You have to think about Heavenly Father, and really understand that your beauty comes from your spirit."

As he spoke those words, I could feel his testimony of what he spoke. He'd come to understand, in a deeply personal way, that our beauty has to do with the righteous development of our spiritual beauty. I could see that radiant beauty in his spirit, and in the way he carried himself- it's why I found the courage to speak with him.

I felt thankful for the opportunity to be at the temple to meet this man, and to have a reminder from him about where the placement of our values need to be in life, in order to achieve peace.

If only we would all understand what he does. If only we stopped placing so much value and emphasis on physical appearances, and really learned to place value on our spiritual development and love of Heavenly Father. If only we could see ourselves through the eyes of a loving God, and learned to make our hourly choices with Heavenly Father's pleasure in mind; imagine how much happier our society would be!

The following words seem applicable, and understood, to this scarred man -and to any of us, wading through tribulation:

 "Saints walk by faith and seek tabernacles of immortal glory"

1 Corinthians 5

1 For we know that if our earthly house of this tabernacle (of our body) were dissolved, we have a building ( an eternal and spiritual home!) created) of God, an house (of glorious eternity) not made with hands, (for we are) eternal in the heavens.

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2 Corinthians 4:6-8

6 For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;

9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;

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Doctrine and Covenants 122:7-9:

"...if thou be cast into the deep; if the billowing surge conspire against thee; if fierce winds become thine enemy; if the heavens gather blackness, and all the elements combine to hedge up the way; and above all, if the very jaws of hell shall gape open the mouth wide after thee, know thou, my son, that all these things shall give thee experience, and shall be for thy good.

8 The Son of Man hath descended below them all. Art thou greater than he?

9 ...fear not what man can do, for God shall be with you forever and ever.

I hope we will each resolve to move forward with greater faith, in believing that he has a plan for each of our individual lives.

I hope that whatever physical or emotional pain we experience, that we will have faith in God, and seek to see His higher purposes. Though it may appear that there are times we are alone, none of us are ever alone! Our God and His angels are always mindful and loving of us. And, if we allow it, our times of sorrow can bless us with "experience" for our "good!"

BUT--- During times of anguish, sorrow, or disappointment, We have to reach out our figurative hands and hearts to Heavenly Father, and we have to REALLY, truly, want him to help raise us from our "bed of affliction." That takes effort on our parts! But it's worth it, to see the miracles that are possible!

My desire is that you will know just how special You are, and to learn that your spirit "outshines every star!". No matter what circumstance you find yourself living in- there is ALWAYS Hope, but that kind of hope can only come through the power of God, and the saving power of Jesus Christ's atonement!

I wish you the peace to be found on your spiritual journey,
Christine

DARE

I discovered this song yesterday. It's by a male singing group: Gentri.  I was so moved by the song that I typed up the lyrics.

Each of us face challenges in life, and we must muster all our courage to face what challenges are before us.  Sometimes it requires a literal leap of faith.
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I see the past staring me down.

I take a deep breath-feet firm on the ground.

My heart's racing fast-beating me down.

Counting down

I scream at the voice inside of my head,

that whispers my dreams are gone and dead. 

But the harder they push,

the stronger I fight- for what's ahead

I'm charting my course to answer the call

I'll fight till I win.

Proud of the cost of my battle scars

I'll never cave in,

no question or pause

I'll climb to the ledge, jump off the edge 

defy the odd

and Dare to dream

I'll push through the pain, 

and claim what i earn

Ready to take the lessons I learn.

And pass the along, 

taking my turn to make my mark.

I'm charting my course

to answer the call.

I'll fight till I win.

Proud of the cost of my battle scars

I'll never cave in -

No question or pause

I'll climb to the ledge- 

jump off the edge and defy the odds

and dare to dream

Dare to dream

Dare to dream

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hiTwY1nQjCE

If you are looking toward Heavenly Father, and seeking His will (above your own), you will find you have the courage to face anything.


Philippians 4:13
New Testament

I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

I testify of this truth.  I am truly blessed as I learned to rely on the power of Jesus Christ in my life.

I wish you all the best in your personal journeys to know Him.
Christine